On the flip side, Paislee, my sister had her 30th at Agave Azul Mexican..it was sooo good! She is just so beautiful on the inside and out and I’m so happy to call her my sister.  Here are some photos from the night.   Happy Birthday Paislee Dawn I celebrate you! I love you!

Happy Friday everyone!

]]> http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/04/30/three-fingered-friday/feed/ 2 http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/04/26/4-months-of-joy/ http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/04/26/4-months-of-joy/#comments Mon, 26 Apr 2010 19:17:45 +0000 Lindsey http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/?p=764 I’ve been pretty bad at updating this thing. My apologies!  We have had such a great few months with our little chunky boy.

Things Sawyer can do now:

Laugh! This was joy to our ears, the first time he did the ol’ giggle Justin and I looked at eachother in amazement! ha. We just couldn’t believe it! I mean it’s just a laugh..not a big deal but when its your kid its A-mazing!

Sawyer’s First giggle

Sawyer’s Second giggle

Sleep! He is still sleeping through the night.  Praise the Lord! But I like to still sneak him in our room to take morning naps

Reach! He grabs for anything and everything!

Talk! He tries so hard to communicate but all that comes out are the awesome “coos” and “muuuhs”.

I’m telling you the boy sings..it’s the truth! I’m driving down the road listening to a song and I hear coming from the backseat..”mmmm mmm mmm” or “uhh uhhhhhhh”.  The only reason why I think he sings is because he holds these noises longer than normal, like he’s trying to hold a note. haha. When I hear him I ask him, “are you singing buddy?” and he completely stops and then starts up again a few minutes later but only if I’m quiet.  It’s SUPER funny.

Little Adventures:

We went to Fort Lauderdale to visit our very good friends Britni & Travis Webster.  The weekend consisted of the Las Olas Farmers Market in the rain, bike riding in the rain, feeding massive Tarpon the size of massive Tarpon, devouring the most amazing clam chowder ever, good food by Britni, wine, good conversation and laughter with one of my best.  We had such a good time! We can’t wait until they move back in September! yahooo!!

Sawyer stayed with MiMi for the first time while Justin and I went on our first date alone.  He did such a great job with her and her with him! Justin and I went to the Dashboard confessional concert to enjoy the wonderful songs that brought us together 8 years ago! We had such a great time together singing, laughing and reminiscing! I love my man!

He loves to go to parks and lay on a blanket in the grass.  He LOVES being outside.

He met the Easter Bunny with his cousins!

Sawyer is kind of social butterfly, he has gone to 6 baby showers with me.  He is such a good baby! Congrats To Lauren, she is welcoming her little boy in May!

We took a trip to see my dear friend Kate and her cutie patootie son, Hendrix in Satellite beach.  We went to a park where Kate and Melissa’s kids swang in the swings while Sawyer was wishing he could do it too! One day not too far away he will have a competition on who will swing higher and I will be crapping my pants. ha..love him being a baby, he will be older for so much longer!  Trying to take it all in.

My friends Mary Hannah and Rachel both had their sweet baby girls, Adelaide & Georgia.  They are both so beautiful! Sawyer will meet both of them this week..the hospital where they were born didn’t allow outside babies to be on the maternity floor so Sawyer has to wait to meet his friends a few more days.

Sawyer attended his first 80s birthday party for our good friend, Becca Hill. We all had such a good time, I dressed as a glam rock girl, Justin was Michael Jay Fox and Sawyer was a jazzercise man. Hilarious.

He is quite a remarkable little man, at about a month old he started sleeping 5 – 7 hours each night. I believe in, what I like to call the “BSB” method; Boob, Swaddle, Bedtime (sometimes I do a bath first but not every night). I tend to put him to bed with his eyes wide open so he gets used to going to bed even if he’s not tired.  We will see how long that lasts but so far he falls right to sleep.   SO blessed he’s sleeping through the night!

We are pretty in love with him, he has such a joyful and sweet spirit.  I caught him today looking out the window, he was smiling so big!  I suspect he saw Jesus.  His first smiles have been amazing to see, it just melts my heart to pieces.  He hasn’t laughed yet but I’m waiting very patiently impatiently.

He loves to snuggle with us, I will be very sad if and when this stops.

We moved his cradle from our room to his room and was in that for about a month.  Now he is in his big boy crib! Sad that he’s getting older but proud that he is such a big boy!

I went to the OB’s office to see if Sawyer was still breech because I wasn’t dilated  and only having braxton hicks contraction.  Since I was a week away from my due date they were curious to see if he was still breech.  I was praying to God that he was head down and ready to go.  No such luck, I went in and Sawyer was in the transverse breech position (Sideways).  The moment my doctor told me this I was filled with anxiety.  The next thing that came out of her mouth was the one thing that I had been fearing my entire pregnancy.  She told me that they needed to schedule me to have Caesarean Section.  Tears started to fall right there in the office, I was so scared.  Let me remind you, I originally was planning on having a homebirth and doing everything natural with no drugs in the comfort of my own home.   None of this was in MY plan. She continued to tell me that she didn’t want me to go into labor or contract as this could result in an emergency situation.  In fear of an emergency situation we scheduled it for January 4th.

As the days grew shorter and shorter leading up to the 4th I was full of fear, anxiety, and sadness.  After a lot of prayer and encouraging conversations with family and friends I was reminded that MY plans are not always in the cards.  God is in control, NOT ME.  I was trying to control every little thing, from the 3 page birth plan to being bitter about even having him in a hospital.  After being reminded of these things, all I REALLY wanted was to have a healthy baby.  It didn’t matter where I had him, what night gown I had on, or if I could have candles or not.  It was a defining moment in my life where God’s plan for my life is better than my own.  Random people would tell me to keep an open mind during my whole pregnancy, I’m glad I listened.

January 4th came quickly as Justin and I drove up to Winnie Palmer..

We were to be there at 11:30am and would be going straight into pre op for the epidural and other fun things. My Momma met us there for support. I had the best anesthesiologist! Her name is Tarrah Bobay! Thanks again Tarrah!

So it was 1:30pm, epideral in and couldn’t feel a thing.  Kind of scary, it felt like I had no legs.  Not a fan of the feeling at all!  They then wheeled me into the OR, I started getting the shakes from the nerves and epideral.

After a ton of pulling, tugging, smells and noises I wish to forget, my baby boy had arrived! They continued pushing and tugging and they told me I had a bifurcated uterus, which means I had heart shaped uterus and possibly one fallopian tube.  Sawyer was never able to go head down because of the shape of my uterus and it was a miracle that I got pregnant after the first try with one fallopian tube!  The Doctor said he couldn’t believe I carried him full term with my uterus.   Sawyer was only able to hang out in the right chamber of the heart shape and couldn’t get over to the other side because of the seem.  CRAZY! Its all a miracle!  Sawyer has a small storks bite on his forehead but will fade with time, other than that he has no other issues.  PRAISE GOD!

If it wasn’t for God intervening in so many areas I don’t know where I would be or my son.  God knew exactly what was to happen which led me down the roads he provided.

Here are a few photos:

Hearing his cry for the first time and my reaction..the sound of this was music to my ears

First Family photo

Timeline

April – Got pregnant

May – Picked a midwife for delivery in my home (the wonderful Diane Albright)

October – Appendix almost ruptured and had it removed (6 days in hospital)

October – Felt as if I should pray long and hard about delivering at home and felt God telling to deliver in a hospital

November – Kidney stones (4 days in hospital)

April to January – Breech baby

January – Ended in Ceasarean and a Beautiful baby boy!

All of this could have gone completely different if I hadn’t heard God right.  God had all of these things lined up so I would make the right choice. God is good.

Full of unspeakable joy!

LOVE

]]> http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/02/25/sawyers-birth-story/feed/ 7 http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/01/04/hes-arrived/ http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/2010/01/04/hes-arrived/#comments Mon, 04 Jan 2010 18:44:32 +0000 Lindsey http://www.lindseyandjustin.com/?p=631

Sawyer Bryant Kirkland

Born at 2:20pm on January 4th, 2010

19.5 inches long 7 lbs 14 ounces

“There are two great day in everyones life; the day you were born and the day you firgured out why”

“I am changed by you and I cannot stop staring..”

I start my maternity leave tomorrow!!! Praise God!!  It will be nice to be able to sleep in a little and get my rest before the little one comes.  I’m not getting too much rest at night because my 6 1/2 pounder is kicking, jabbing, and bobbing his head around down south..it doesn’t feel so hot.  I know I will probably miss feeling him in my belly once he’s out..but since we will be having several more I don’t see that being a big issue.

Other than feeling like a balloon and feeling as if I have a bowling ball between my legs, I’m feeling really good!  My BH contractions have gotten more uncomfortable and take my breath away at times.  My energy has slipped a little but not enough to not allow me to throw a dinner party! Oh no, not me! ha, it may have been a little work but it turned out perfect and just what we wanted.  We made a delicious Apricot glazed Turkey with herb Butter and it came out great for our first time cooking one! We may have had a fire that blew out of the oven but everyone came out alive, wasn’t laughing then but laughing now!  Justin and I wanted to share the holidays with our “extended family” and just enjoy eachother before babyk comes.  I may have been contracting the entire time but I just think it means Babyk will be alert and very social! ha, he must love laughter, music and yummy arromas! :)

Here are some pictures from the night!

Here’s a few kissy face photos from yesterdays appointment.

The first one is looks like he’s puckering up and the second one, he looks like he is bighting his bottom lip.

How’s Mommy doing?

Contractions: I’ve been having BH contractions all day everyday, they have been about 45 min apart lasting about 1 – 2 minutes.  The doctor says its very normal towards the end of your pregnancy.  I see it as practice .

Weight Gain: I have gained 18 pounds up to this point, no stretch marks yet! Praying those will stay far far away. 

The Motion of Movement:  Haha, getting up out of bed on a temperpedic is a chore!  If we had a spring mattress it would be a little easier but no bouncing out for me, its more like a roll out…   Getting up from the couch, off the floor, and just bending over is getting more difficult, thank God Justin is there to help!  Not to mention standing up and feeling like he going to fall out of me. 

Justin: My blessing,  in every sense of the word.

Maternity Leave: My last day of work will be on Dec. 22! 

Hospital bags: Packing this week, cancer researchers have found that a higher percentage of post cancer patients have their babies earlier than later.  So, I’m gonna be ready!! 

How’s the Nursery coming along?

I took a few pictures of it the other day, we are still in the works with getting it in order (painting, wall hangings and curtains still need to go up, but you get the idea

Thank you to Catie Loveless and Megan Nettles for making it so amazing and meaningful!!

It was great to see my friends and family there!  The support and love I felt was ridiculous… I feel so blessed to know such amazing woman.

Here are some pictures from the fun day. Click on the photos make them bigger!

My crafty friends, Miss Christina Butler painted the most amazing canvas for Babyk’s room and Miss Teya Early made me some incredible, hand stitched onesies that may have scarred her poor finger tips for life.  Thank you girls for putting your creative juices to work..Babyk will love them both!!

Pregger line up!   Lauren – 14wks, Rachel – 20wks, Mary Hannah – 23wks, Mel – 26wks, Paislee – 29wks, Me – 33wks.  Funniest part of it is they all are having girls accept for me, Babyk is going to have lots of prospects ! Lauren hasn’t found out and need more boys for the boy team!! Come on Lauren!

 Catie wrote a beautiful poem especially written for Justin, BabyK and I…You may laugh, you may cry but either way I will still be crying from her sharing it on Saturday. haha.    It will be kept close to my heart forever…Thank you Catie, you have no idea how much this means to me..xoxo

 Oh My, What an Adventure!

 

“In just a few weeks, BabyK will be on his way!

You will breathe fast and Justin will drive fast.

You will push hard and Justin will pray hard.

And finally, my dear friend, you will meet your son.

 

Oh my, the adventure begins!

 

A few days later, you will take your new family home.

You will walk slowly and Justin will drive slowly.

You will rock softly and Justin will talk softly.

And your heart will melt into a puddle on the floor.

 

Oh my, what an adventure!

 

By then, it won’t matter what color you painted his room because you will be undone by the color of his eyes.

You will forget about the hospital trips, the appendicitis and the kidney stones

You will be in awe, in love, and over the moon.

 

What an amazing adventure!

 

He will cry in the middle of the night and the middle of the day and many, many times in between.

Your mom will say, “He looks like Justin!”

Justin’s mom will insist, “I see Lindsey in that smile!”

 

And you will think, oh my, what an adventure!

 

You will teach him how to make the ordinary an experience: a fort in the living room, a safari in the back yard, a shark encounter in the swimming pool, and a bug hunt under ten million stars.

 

Everything will be an adventure.

 

He will get scrapped knees and have scary dreams and want to jump from high places.

He will have imaginary boo boos requiring Spiderman band-aids, only Spiderman will do.

He will have his first day of school, his first big test, and his first best friend (my son, Miles, of course)

 

Oh my, what an adventure!

 

You should get ready now, because he will also have his first girlfriend, his first kiss, and his first broken heart

He will get his first speeding ticket, and probably his second and third..

And it will feel like he is always speeding off…

to hang with his friends or go to a game or find some fun, somewhere.

 

And you will wait at home, eager to hear his latest adventure.

 

Then there will be the time he will choose the path less chosen or be honest when it’s hard

And your heart will swell with the pride of a parent.

You will capture the small moments and

You will teach him to be wise,

Enjoying each chance to nurture the spirit of God within him.

 

Oh my, what an adventure.

 

And one day, he will tell you he met a girl

He will ask her to join him on his adventures for the rest of their lives.

They will plan big and they will dream big.

You will save as much money as you possibly can

And at the end of the night, as you dance with your son

You will think, “Oh my, what an adventure!”

 

Soon you will get the news, they are having a child of their own and they are on their way!

As you drive to the hospital, your heart will race fast and Justin will drive fast.

Your chest will pound hard and Justin will pray hard.

 

And when you see your son, holding his child

Tears will stream down your face and you will say to him, “Oh my, what an adventure you will have!”

- Catie Loveless

Miles AKA BabyK’s BFF of course.